Who am i
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
Happenings
Friday, July 27, 2007
-11:25 PM
Cheryln and I in sec2, Australia trip
Today I went to the airport to send Cheryln off to Canada. Her whole family is migrating there. Ever since she told me the news of her leaving, i just felt very sad, remorseful and unable to accept that fact. This news hit me more than when i heard of church members dying or when my grandfather died last week. Though i may not have mentioned her that often, she is someone that i treasure very much, my best friend in primary school. Till now, i still cant believe that she has left for canada. I never thought my friends will leave me one day, and she's my first closest friend to have done that.
Men are like that. When the person is still with us, we dont treasure them. When the person is gone, then we feel the pain and regret not doing more. All sorts of emotions welled up within me. anger because she did not tell me earlier that she was migrating, then perhaps i could have done more. Sad, because i dont know when i'll meet her again and she is not those IT savvy person who uses msn. Remorse, because I havent been such a great friend as what she says I am.
I remember in Pri 5, i became her closest friend when both her parents and my parents went to visit the same uncle. Ever since then, i thought she was the most beautiful person. kind, compassionate, sweet, gentle, God-fearing, hardworking, everything. And then in sec sch, we split ways after entering different classes. My class won all the competitions in school, and hers didnt. We were still in the same higher chinese class though and later ended up in the same class in sec3 and 4. But i never treated her as well as in the past. Because she belonged to the "teacher's pet clique" and was subjected to criticisms in class, i gradually didnt feel that proud to call her my friend or to be associated with her. How i wish i could change those times! Never did i stand up for her when her clique was criticised, never did i proudly proclaim that she's my close friend.
I never thought she meant that much to me until i realised that when I think of her leaving, i start crying. She's a loyal friend, godly and righteous, inspiring in her own ways, yearning for the praise of God and not for men, in failure she still remains joyful, edifying, befriending the outcast, enthusiastic about everything. How can i ever find a friend like this! Even I myself am not a person like her. She wouldnt care about what people say and just befriended this loner guy in JC, even though people started spreading rumours of him and her together. And yet God blessed me with her and I never treasured her. Thank You Lord for Cheryln, thank You Lord for blessing me with wonderful friends. Thank You Lord for helping me to recognise Your blessings in my life, I am very very blessed.
Rushed to the airport only to find out that she was already boarding the plane. If the plane must take off at 10am, i must be there at least 1 hour before right!? i forgot that i must be there earlier and just took 10am as the time to reach. My heart sank when i called shu yan and she told me that Cheryln has left. I just stood outside the departure hall feeling so lost and trying so hard to control my tears man. I still had so many things to tell her and pass to her. But thank God that I could still talk to her through the hp before the plane took off, if not i really dont know what to do. Im really proud to have Cheryln as my friend. and if ever anyone says that they wish they could play the harp, i will still proudly say that i have a friend who plays the cherubs!
