Who am i
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
Happenings
Sunday, April 30, 2006
-8:32 AM
Love is patient, love is kind
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud, it is not rude
It is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered
IT KEEPS NO RECORD OF WRONGS
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth
It always protects, always trusts
Always hopes, always perseveres
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
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On Sat, my cell girl told me about how God helped her to forgive an enemy in school. It's so touching to hear her story in Sec school. The week before she was telling me about how much she hated that girl and cannot wait to take revenge and i challenged her to apologise first. Without God's strength, she would never be able to forgive that girl and patch back the relationship. And i thank God because only He can change a person's heart, I was just so proud of her!!
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So if I told my girl to forgive, so must I. God is so funny. He planned for me to teach my girl about forgiveness, and then He tested me about it. Just today, I was hurt verbally by my very close friend, even though I had good intentions. It hurts more when the person matters to you. And i just feel that Im being badly influenced by my friends. My words are not very edifying anymore. Not that my friends are bad, but in that area of words, alot of us struggle with it. Instead of influencing them, im becoming like them, especially when i reply their "suanings". However, true love keeps no records of wrongs. Those words really spoke to me. Today during worship, i heard God telling me that His love is enough for me. I felt this strong peace, comfort and strength. I felt so blessed to be with God, just as if I was in a garden with Him enjoying a walk down the lane. And i told God that I do not want to keep record of wrongs or any offensive words spoken to me. I need to practise forgiveness at all times. Only God's love can conquer that.
-8:18 AM
Went out with Lili last Sun!!! woohoo!! fun talking to her, although i realise i still did not tell her everything i had in mind. I just forgot when i saw her. Aiya, but i miss her very much!!! Especially the times in PL. Yay! and after quite a while not taking neoprints, this is my first neoprint for the year!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
-11:44 PM
Would you prefer to know when you died or not to know at all? i'd rather die unknowingly. It's like that time when i watched a super sadistic show- Final Destination 3, where the characters knew who will die next and how they'll die. It's scary. I once read of someone who knew when and how he was to die as well, and i bet if i were in the story seeing him die, i would cry very badly.
This man is a doctor and he was told by a wise fortune teller that he had to die on this particular day. The night before he died, he was begging and crying out to the fortune teller to change his fate. In fact, he cried until there was blood!!! The doctors said that when someone cries out blood it's due to an emotional disease- fear and anguish. I can imagine prisoners who received the death sentence feeling this way as well. They'll probably be trembling with fear, calling for help and yet they know it's hopeless. The fortune teller was very heart broken to see him like that. He did not want him to die if there was another way. So he sent a message to comfort him.
Next day came. This man was made to parade publicly in the streets without any clothes on. More over he was covered with blood, because he was beaten up before that. And you might think that people would sympathise with him but NO! The photographers were so happy to have some nice gruesome shots, the journalists were busy writing some juicy news in their notebooks and some others who had nothing better to do had phlegm in their throats. So they cleared their throats by spitting on him. I must add on something. When I read till this part, i was very angry because.. this man was wrongly accused!!! It's like in the "da chang jin" show where the innocent are made the scapegoats .From the place where he died, he could see many people staring at him, smirking. Their eyes had so much hatred and anger, they were not a least bit thankful that he healed them before. Some were even fighting over his clothes. Some were laughing at the way he was dying. His loved ones stood at a distance and watched everything with so much sadness. Of course if your best friend was treated like that, you would also feel so heart broken, especially when you can't do anything to help!! The clouds grew cloudy and it started to rain. The man felt very weak, but most importantly, he felt so lonely and rejected. But with tears streaming down his face, he said "Father forgive them, for they know not what they are doing" and he died.-An extract from "The Life of Jesus"-This man is Jesus and no matter how much resentment anyone may feel towards him, nothing changes the fact that he loves us. He had to die so that we would not have to go to hell. Even when he died, he prayed that God would forgive us because we're all so naughty. All he wants us to do is to love him back. Happy Good Friday.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
-5:42 AM
This week was fun but ended with sadness. I feel sad when i hear of people quarrelling over small issues, even worse when the person is someone u love. Sometimes you just want to show concern for people, but all that's in his mind is negativity, everyone is a potential suspect/terrorist to him. And when did blogs turn into a haven for fighting and quarrelling? it's childish! It's unwise to quarrel, very unwise.
"A patient man has great understanding, but a quick-tempered man displays folly" Prov 14:29. "... a fool is hot-headed and reckless" Prov 14:16.
"A quick-tempered man does foolish things"Prov14:17.
It's very foolish to quarrel back with people on your blog where everyone can see how reckless u are. When you get angry easily, you tend to do things without thinking. It takes a great deal more strength to keep quiet and control your anger than quarrel back and seem cool, so sad. Even more sad when your so-called friends join in the "fun" and quarrel back. It's a never-ending fight! so foolish! To me, i should think that true friends are on a more neutral side and thus, can think better than to quarrel back. True and wise friends would not fight back because they know the fight will keep continuing. It's just a fight of pride, to see who can last longer and win. So sad.... there's not much I can do when the ears and heart are all closed up, no use speaking to a person who does not listen. Lord, just do as You please just to teach her Your ways. Amen.
